I couldn't quite figure out why I felt so exhausted this week, so unmotivated. I had an upset stomach Monday and Tuesday, so I didn't workout and that was fine. I ran with Kristin Wednesday despite my stomach still feeling gross - it was so nice to see her and just get in an easy run - but Thursday and Friday I did nothing again.
I forced myself to run Saturday despite feeling totally unhappy about it, and I felt rundown and low-energy the entire time. Sunday, Elizabeth and I did another short run, but my stomach hurt again and I had trouble breathing. Could be humidity. Could be other stuff.
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| Here's a pretty sunset picture because things are about to get bleak. |
I think maybe I was just emotionally drained. Matt has been away all week to be with his Nana. She's been sick for a long time, but this week she was taken off all her medications and isn't eating or drinking. He's planning to probably stay with her until she passes, but we don't know how long that will be. I can't be with him because I'm starting work this week. I think the emotional burden of all that - wanting to be there for him, the constant worry and anticipation over what will happen and when, being alone, being anxious about work, feeling guilty for wishing he could be here with me - has just completely drained me.
I really didn't want to turn this post into a post about all that but...there it is.
So I ran three times this week and did nothing else. It is what it is; sometimes life happens, and I don't know when I'll be back on top of things, so I just have to take it one day at a time.
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O man, sorry to hear about Matt's Nana. That's rough.
ReplyDeleteWe've been having heat advisories here and that is why I haven't got much done running wise!
Sending healing thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about Matt's Nana. Hang in there, friend.
ReplyDeleteYou are going through a lot Ali! Your body might just be wanting to take it easy.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry to hear about Matt's Nana.
Stay strong! You got this! sending positive vibes your way!
I'm sorry to hear about Matt's Nana. It's goo dhe can be there with her, even if you can't.
ReplyDeleteThe heart and mind and body are all one... keep taking care of yourself.
Sad to hear this. All you can do in situations like this is exactly what you're doing--taking it one day at a time and doing what you need to.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like with everything you've got going on that it's a good time to take it a little bit easier on your runs. I'm sorry to hear about your hubby's Nana, hope you all do well during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteTaking care of yourself emotionally is much more important than a few skipped runs. I am sorry to hear about Matt's Nana and I hope she and the family finds peace.
ReplyDeleteMy stomach was upset a few days last week too. I was drinking pepto, which is so gross. It's 2016, there's gotta be a better flavor! Even the Pepto pills taste bad!
I'm sorry to hear about Matt's Nana. That's a very hard thing to go through and I'm sure it's especially hard for you since you can't be there as support. Don't worry about a few missed runs. Take care of yourself!
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